Friday, December 19, 2008

I Miss You So Much..............

Wings Of The Angels

by Tim Chambers

A gentle wind blew cross the land
Reaching out to take a hand
For on the winds the angels came
Calling out a mother's name.

Left behind, the children's tears
Loving memories of the years
Of joy and love, a life well spent
And now to God a mother's sent.

On angel's wings, a heavenly flight
The journey home, towards the light
To those who weep, a life is gone
But in God's love, 'tis but the dawn.

I can't believe it's almost been a year since you've been gone??? It seems like just yesterday you was singing on my VM saying, " I love u stank and I'm proud of the woman you've become." I can still hear your voice when I sleep, hear your laugh when I'm sad, and see you dance when I'm mad to make me laugh.

So much has happened since you've left us here. We are still suffering with all the baggage here while you up above care free and watching over the family, me, and my knuckle head brothers. By the way, Yes I have been looking over them and taking care of them. They still spoiled rotten because of you and grandad, but they getting over that quick!!

You would be so proud of your grandson. His football team was 9 and 1 again this season. They won their division championship for the 2nd year in a row. They also made it to the 2nd round of the state championship game as well!! He was honored with soooo many awards an mentions. He is growing into a very handsome, intelligent, caring, responsible young man. And don't worry Me and Devon are keeping the groupies away!!!lol

Oh and your nephew Bran is doing so well!! He's sooo ready to graduate that he can't see straight!!lol I know he will stick it out and be the best man that you always told him to be and that I know he will be. We've been spending alot more time together and becoming partners in crime like when we were little. I'm sooo proud of him and I will have his back always no matter what!! He will be a great writer one day and I can't wait for all his dreams to come true!!

Your twin Aunt T is doing well as far as I can see?? She keep pushing and we talk at least 2 times a week. We had thanksgiving at my house and I was so nervous cause I know you and Aunt T are the lady cooks of the fam so I was nervous about cooking such a big feast for the first time. But I got her stamp of approval and she said I would've had yours as well!!lol So now we will have the tradition of her doing Christmas and I will do Thanksgiving.

As far as your buddy. Hes doing well also. He has alot going on right now with his company and they are making really big moves. I'm so proud of him!! I wish you could be a witness to all the progress he is making. I know that you really loved him and wanted him to be a part of the fam, but somethings just don't work out. But he will always be loved by our family and vice versa. Just keep your angel wings wrapped around him and his partners so that they continue with their success.

Well as for me??? I miss u terribly and i still cant grasp the concept of me not being able to come see you or pick up the phone to hear your voice. Its so hard sometimes that I have panic attacks and breakdowns because I miss you so much and I'm so stressed with everything that's happened this year. You are one of the only 3 people on earth who can calm me down. I feel like I'm losing everyone i love. I have so much on my mind and in my heart that I just don't know where to start or begin??? I know that you are looking down on me and that you will always have your love around me, but its not the same as me being able to hug you, talk to you, and laugh with you. Maybe its me being selfish, but I cant help it. I wish that I could just hear your laugh, see your smile, smell your scent, have you rub my hair to calm me down one last time. But all I have are the dreams and memories in my head and in my heart. I hope that you are finally getting the rest that you deserve mom.

With all my heart & soul,

I love you always,

Miranda Marie


Yas said...

That was so touching and beautiful sweety I'm speechless. I'm sitting over here with tears just reading your entry. I'm sending prayers for your continued strength and that you will continue to feel the love that your mom brought into your life. Hugs to you sweety. I'm thinking of you.

Miss.Stefanie said...

Very touching ...made me tear up.

Keith said...

That was so touching..I almost teared up (Don't tell anybody-lol)
because my Mom died in May of this year after a long bout with Cancer.
I know exactly how you feel..I'm still reeling from it.

Anonymous said...

WOW! Speechless!!! Very well put.