Monday, February 23, 2009
" I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. You've got to go out and kick ass. "
I read this quote and I absolutely loved it! I am a huge fan of Dr. Angelou and this just caught me so off guard, but then it's so real too! I have so much happiness, dedication, fulfillment, and drive right now that it's not even funny. After I had the talk with my god mom and also just going to church and reading my bible more I'm just starting to see the old me coming back.
I had felt like I was someone else for so long that I didn't even recognize myself? As sad as that sounds it's so true. When certain things in life happen and you have certain relationships and bonds with people you almost find yourself changing to fit their needs. Now you may or may not notice it at first, but once you do it's almost like it's too late?
Now I truly appreciate and respect all those who have come into my life. No matter if it was for a Reason, Season, Or a Lifetime, because they all have taught me so many things. I posted a poem awhile back entitled, " Everyone Can't Be In Your Front Row ". It's so true, everyone can't be there, until you are there yourself! That's how I feel right now. I'm the main attraction, the center of attention, I'm front row center for myself.
I'm not trying to sound cocky or arrogant, I'm merely using those examples as a metaphor to express that I'm taking care of me for me now, and everyone else should feel lucky to have me decide to let you be a part of my inner circle and care for you as I'm about to start caring for myself again. Wow! I'd never thought I would say something like that because I was always so focused on everyone else that I lost focus of myself.
Well that's over with! It's a brand new day and I'm so ready to, " Grab the world by it's lapel " and live a happy fulfilling life. Not matter if it's by myself or with a family. I'm gonna be the woman that I was always meant to be and hopefully an inspiration to my younger female cousins and others to do the same. I've been getting business in order to move and I've been so excited!!
I was talking to a good friend of mine today about me moving and my feelings on it. I told him that I almost feel guilty about leaving because of my true friends, brothers, nephews, and my godparents who I know will miss me terribly, but at the same time I can't effin wait to leave!!! I'm so happy where my life is right now that I cant see straight. Everything I've been thinking and talking about is really happening! There is still alot of things that are still up in the air, but bottom line is I'm the happiest I've been in a long time.
So watch out world, cause this young woman is about to start kicking ass and taking names!!lol Shine in 09 or get left behind!!!!!