No End To Success

Success is not the triumph over regress,
Success is the power to suppress.
Success is not the money or the fame,
Success is, knowing you are still the same.
Success is not the power or the pride.
Success is the knowing how to hide.
Success is not a gift or gain,
Success is accepting and believing in your name.
Success is not a point or goal to seek,
Success is, believing you have never reached the peak.
Success is

Jeff Rushton


This was a poem that really spoke to me. Right now there are a few personal and professional issues that I am currently faced with and there all to do with success and moving forward. When you are experiencing a new chapter in your life you should be happy excited and blessed. You shouldn't feel sad, mad, or like you owe an explanation.

When certain things happen in life they are truly for a reason. No matter what it is, be it a new Job, new friend, new car, new title, etc. You should never have to feel conflicted because you are given an opportunity over someone else. Bottom line is you were obviously doing the job you were suppose to be doing the correct way anyway in order to be considered for that next step right?

Unfortunately in life some people just can't accept the fact that there are people who are better qualified than them, more dependable, more trustworthy, and just an all around better candidate. It's like something I once heard in a Tyler Perry play and something my mom would always say, "When the Lord sees fit to start sending blessings your way, you will truly know who your friends are." Those words never rang as clear as they do now!!

Every Girl's Dream......

So it seems that love is definitely in the air???? Just today I was asked to be a part of two weddings that will take place within the next year!!! OMG!! I was too shocked to say the least when i recieved both phone calls?!? I also will be atteniding a wedding on sat for a friend of mine as well!! My godmom always teases me about " always being the bridesmaide and never the bride!!!" I just tell her when God sees fit for me to settle down and married he will place my husband in my life. Who knows?? He could already be in my life;o)

Oh well here are 3 of my favorite wedding video tributes in honor of my chicas who are crossing over to be married women!!! I love all three of you and congrats!!!!





Yup I picked the remix.....and?!?




How could I not include this one???




I tried to find the vieo but they wouldnt release the code to put on my page to view;op I love that video bcause it showed Beyonce as the " Video Girl". Look how far shes come since 1999!?!?!

So.......What's Your Dream?

My overall dream one day is to own and operate a hospital in which I would dedicate to my late grandmother. It would have a cancer center also due to the disease has been a main cause of death to most of my family members. I also hope to have a few different organizations and charities that focus on health, self-esteem, drug, alcohol, all kinds of abuse, education, arts, and other subject matters that tend to stress and bother our youth and young adults. After I'm moved and settled I will be going back to school to get a BSN in Psych and continue my Nursing to become a Nurse Pratictioner. So I ask all of you....what is your dream(s)? And what are you doing to obtain that dream?? I'm waiting to hear from you all.

I'm Back!!!!

Hello everyone!!! I've been MIA for awhile now and I'm sad to say I have lo key been neglecting my blog ad my blog family!!!! I truly am sorry but I have had sooo much going on! I am glad to say I finished my quarter of school with a 3.600 and I have decided to continue on after I move to finish up completely. I have also been taking some time off to relax my mind body and soul as well. So I have been hitting a few places for some vacations!!

I had to hit up my best friend and my stinker doodle!! Aw y'all know i had been waiting on that!!! I was also able to handle some business while visiting them as well that went extremely well!! And if anyone caught my last post you now how hard it was to leave!!!!;o( I still get teary eyed thinking about it!!

But I've posted some pics below of that trip and I hope ya like them! I also hope all has been well with everyone?? I will be checking out some of yawls posts and cacthcing up on comments and all that good stuff! Man!! it feels soo good to be back!!lol


The bautiful Beach! Look at the waves!!!

Me caught off guard trying to strike a quick pose!!lol

My Bestie/Sister & My Stinker Doodle!!! His 1st time at the beach!!

The Water

The Beach...And it was spring break too!!!

Stinker Doodles Dad after getting buried in the sand!!!

Big E buried in the sand!!!

The girls throwing sand on Big E. He asked to be buried?!?!?lol

The girls just starting the process of burying Big E

Stinker Doodle in the sand!! He was loving it!!

It's Been Awhile......

When the soul protects itself, it doesn't realize that the hard outer casing also prevents relationships from forming with God and people. The wearing of this casin is irksome. Not only will it give you a form of protection, but it also encases all your irritations. They are locked in with you!

Stop........Think About It

Love makes us patient, understanding, and kind. We judge with our hearts not with our mind for as soon as love enters the hearts opened door the faults we once saw aren't there anymore.

Updates......

Hello all!! I'm just checkin in to see how all of my blogger fam is?? Sorry I haven't posted in awhile;o/ My computer is having a mind of its own and so is my phone. So I've decided its time to upgrade both!! My new phone should be here next week and this weekend I'm going to look into getting a laptop finally!!!lol

I've also been grinding it out at work and in school. Both have been very demanding, but all worth it in the end. Work has been very busy lately but it has been drama free the last week. And school is good, gettin A's and B's so I can live with that!!lol I will be glad when this qtr is over though, I'm not gonna lie!!

Ummm lets see what else?? I have also been trying to plan out my next two vacations. I wasn't able to make it down to Orlando due to certain circumstances. But I did take those days off to relax and just take time out for ME! I sooo needed it!! But I will be re-booking my trip to Orlando and the other trip is not quite decided?? I wanted to do it in April-May, but I'm thinking I may just wait til my B'Day weekend and hit up Cali??

I've also been getting ready for the big move I've been discussing as well. I'm in the process of job and housing searches. Right now I'm just kind of scamming through stuff, but I will be hittin them hard about this time next month. My goal is to be moved and settled before my birthday. So mid-end of June is the goal.

Well I don't have too much more to talk about. I didn't want to talk about the normal stuff I've been seeing already that's all out in the news....that's already over blogged and talked about. So I hope everyone is well and had a wonderful Valentine's Day!! Which reminds me....mine was cool & lo key. Just dinner then chillin wit my cuzzo 4 a girls night in!! I wish I could've gotten a card or some flowers tho!!lol Awww snap I did get flowers!!! Thanks Dominique!!! You're the best nephew in the world!!

So drop by and let me know how you all have been? I know I've been in touch with some of you through email and twitter. But I'd still like to know how everyone is? Ttyl!! Smooches

I'm Loving This Song

I absolutely love her whole album!!! Her voice is just amazing!!!! I know this song has been out for awhile,but I just heard my cousin sing it and she KILLED it!!! Man I wish I could really sing!!!lol
Oh well enjoy it allllll over again!!!;o)






This is another one of my favorte songs of hers as well!

SILENT TEARS

Missing You.........

Mom, Me, and one of my brothers


Mom, me, and my 2nd mom


I cant believe were the time has gone? It's been a year already and it still feels like yesterday when i got that dreadful call. I will never forget it was about 3:30am and the phone rang, I answered only to hear Billy's voice shaking with fear, and crying like Ive never heard him before. " Sis, I'm so sorry to tell you this, but mom died!!" What was the first thought in my head?!?!
I had just spoken to you that night on the phone when I got home from work. You were laughing and joking around talking about, " When you and my son in law gonna get married, I need some grand kids!!" Then you said, " Miranda, I'm so proud of the woman you have become. I know I wasn't always there for you like I should've been, but you were blessed with Elaine and Spencer. they have taught you to be an even better woman than I ever could have been. You and your brothers have always been the joy in my life and I will always love y'all. But you are my baby and my only girl, and you have a gift inside of you that you haven't even acknowledged yet. The whole world will be blessed once you realize what it is."
Then You went off for x-rays, and the last time i heard your voice was you saying, " I love you stank, with all my heart forever and always." I still hear those words ringing in my mind and in my heart. It was so hard at first trying to get over the loss of you because a few month after it was like Bam! Grandad passed then not too long after uncle David passed.
Slowly but surly it has gotten easier. All the tears, panic attacks, sad moments, bad dreams are slowly fading away. I know it will always be there and I will never forget but it is easier to cope with it alot more. I must say that I truly have the best family and friends in the world. Going through this tough time it truly showed me who was really in my corner and who truly love me. It also showed the fake and the phony as well.
I will say that i still miss you terribly but i understand i cant be selfish. The lord knew what he was doing when he took the 3 of you from us. He was letting yal get the rest yal deserved because your work here on earth was done and he felt yal completed journey that he had laid out for yal since birth.
And i want to say thank you for putting Elaine and Spencer in my life. without those to who knows where i would be? they have always accepted me like i was there own and nothing less. the have given me all the love, support, and dedication that any child could ask for. and even though I'm grown and on my own they still provide me with all those things and more!!
I love you mom and nothing will ever change that! No matter if you were there for us or not, you still showed me the type of woman i wanted to be. I always said i had the best of both worlds when it comes to living. Ive seen the bad and ive lived the good. I believe that's why I'm able to related to all kinds of people from both sides of the track.
i believe I'm understanding that gift that you were speaking of? I'm actually in the midst of another degree and also on the verge of starting some organizations and other business ventures. I saw one of your clients the other day that you use to council, she broke down in tears and just hugged me. " You look so much like your mother its crazy!" I actually was invited to go and speak at the faith mission where you use to work to some the to teenage girls who went through what I went through when you were battling your demons.
Mom, I love you with all my heart and soul and i always will. continue to keep your arms wrapped around the family so the good blessing will continue to bless us. 4 you will always be in my mind and always wrapped around my soul.

Love Always,
Miranda Marie

Sidebar: The pics above are from the day of my senior prom. Even though I have plenty of other pics, I choose those because my mom always said I looked like I was going to my wedding instead of a prom.lol So since she will not be able to be with me on my wedding day, i figured this was the next best thing!!;o)

Sorry..........

I haven't posted anything in awhile. I've been working a lot lately and I've also went back to school as well. Thank GOD for online classes!!!lol

Work has been very hectic lately. There's a lot of tension within the site. It goes back to a previous post I had talking about, managers drawing the line between MANAGER and FRIEND.

I feel that my site has a really good group of people that get along for the most part. No arguing, bickering, or anything like that. I mean of course there are cliques, but what place doesn't?

My main problems with the site is lack of communication from the head manager to the rest of us and also not knowing when to draw that fine line that I had mentioned earlier.

I feel that some of the managers that have that " Title" truly do not belong in that position. I'm in no way trying to be a hater but I'm speaking the truth. And that goes toward the whole company not just my site.

I mean they have a HR rep who takes almost 6 mths to get your health benefits started and then to even get them, you have to whiteout someone elses form, fill in your own info, fax it in, then call the health insurance company youself to make sure they got them??? How ghetto is that??

I'm just very irritated right now with my place of employment and not sure who to talk to?? I mean can't go to my manager because she goes through her own mess, her manager will just direct me back to my manager, HR rep is just out of the question!!! And the CEO is down in Orlando manning he 3 new sites down there!?!

Hmmmmm??? Orlando is looking a lot better right now for more ways than one? That's what's keeping me goin right now, my trip to Orlando next month. I'm a little under the weather right now too cuz the weather here in Columbus is WHACK!!!! I wish I had someone to take care of me!! I'm always taking care of others and nursing them, but nobody nurses me back to health!;o( O well I'll get over it. June can't come quick enough for me so I can move!!!

Everyone keeps asking am I serious about moving??? Why wouldn't I be?? I'm still young, no kids, no man, and I'm just too ambitious to stay here any longer. I always wanted to travel the world, but how can I do that when I haven't even experienced living in another state?? Hell another city for that matter?!?

God has blesed me to love the field that I work in and am able to travel anywhere in the world to save lives and make a difference. So I've been getting offers from everywhere!! I find it funny because I stated that I plan on moving June of 2009, but they still giving me offers. And I'm greatly appreciating them!!

But we will see where the wind takes me?? All I know is it has to be a warmer climate, pay is what I make now or better, benefits are better, the schedule allows me to go to school, and there definitely has to be room for advancement. That's not a lot to ask for is it??? I don't think so;o)

Well that's all for now, I'm about to get back to studying this biology. UGH! I forgot how boring homework can be???lol But its all for the better of my future and my goals, so its all good. Hope all is well with my blog fam?? And sorry I haven't visited you all like I usually do, its just been hectic like I stated earlier, but I will not neglect y'all promise!!!

Have a great night!!! Hugs & Kisses!!

My 2009 Has Kicked Off With A Bang!!!

Hello blogworld!!! I hope all had a wonderful, safe, fun New Year? I know some partied long and hard, some went to church, and some may have just stayed at the crib and chilled.

I myself went to a friends party and had a blast!!!! It was almost like havin a high school reunion, cuz EVERYBODY in there was people I went to school with and hadn't seen for awhile. So it was great to catch up and bring in a new year.

It was a very casual down to earth cool mellow crowd. Everyone was def getting their grown and sexy swag on!!lol The music was bumping, drinks was flowin, laughter, dancing, picture taking, and food!!! OMG!!! The food was great!!! Bbq ribs, meatballs, greens, mac & cheese, green beans, the works!!! And it was all free!!!!

Then the countdown began!!! Everyone had their hats, lights, noise makers as we watched the ball drop to bring in a new year!!! Now throughout the night the dj kept asking people their resolutions and goals for 2009. He said whatever the majority was he would play a song representing the most voted one.

So after hitting one and everyone screaming, hugging, crying, just bein overwhelmed with the start of a new year, the dj says" Okay we have a tie for the most common resolution/goal for the new year! Here's the 1st joint." Everyone stops and waits.......then blastin out the speaker came........." I get money...I I get money..." so you know it went bananas!!!!lol then we were jammin to that and the dj says," okay here's the other song...this ones is strictly 4 the ladies!" Then of course the ladies anthem came blarin out..." All my single ladies...all my single ladies!!"

Needless to say it went down!!!! So much fun, no drama, no stress, no fights, just love, respect, happiness, and the eagerness of a great new year!!

I'm very much looking forward to this new year. There are a lot of great things that will be goin on in my life and those around me. Like today is my dads last day of work after 43 years at the post office and serving 8 years in the army. I give my papi mad props for working as hard as he does. Becasue of him, I've learned the value of hard work. I've been working since I was 12, by choice, so I def know what work is. And I def am honored to have had that example in my life.

I also have a lot of personal projects that I'm working as mentioned in an earlier blog about some charities and organizations I want to startup. I have always had these plans in my heart and mind, but must admit I had kind of put them on the backburner. But that's all over time to get it poppin as my bestfriend would say( I see ya Mr.Jwork). Looking at how far his company has come has inspired me more than ever!! Which reminds me, they just launched their hot website and yall need to check it out!! They are the best newest clothing line in the midwest in my opinion!! You wanna be fresh to death check them out at www.jworklimited.com. They got some hot ish so be on the lookout cuz Jwork is on the rise!!!

I just feel so energized and excited about this year!! I can only imagine what God has planned for me?? I have let go of so much pain, anger, stress, fears, and friends. No negativity in 2009. Only happiness and success for me! And if ya can't bring that to the table then ya need to excuse yaself!!

I've started off to a great year! I've lost the weight I wanted(yea baby!!) goal was 15-20 pds and I lost 23!! I said I wasn't bringing bad friendships into 09 so I'm proud to say that I'm 2 people lighter!! Yea had to lay those friendships to rest. And believe me there were NO tears at that funeral!!lol I know I have more services to attend, what about yall???lol

My next big goal is to finally get situated for this move I'm going to be making. I have until march 1st to make up my mind what I'm going to do? I know I'm leaving for sure beacuse I need to be away from all the stress, hurt, and drama that was around me in 2008. I need to surround myself with positive, fun, loving, intelligent, funny, goal oriented, supportive people. I need people around me that will shine with me & not block my shine!! I told ya if ya blockin, you will get left behind!!! You're either with me or against me!!

So my moving choice was Orlando, FL, but because of my profession I can pretty much go anywhere. And I have been receiving offers from all over the place!!!lol So I ask to my friends here in blogworld.......Where should I go?? Tell me somethings about where yall live or where your from?? I must admit I am a very very warm/hot climate type of person, but I'm pretty much open to anywhere.

Well that's enough of that!!!lol Stop by and let me know what yall did for new years, what's your resolutions/goals for 2009, are yall puttin any friendships to rest? What was the deciding factor for you living where you live, or staying where you were born??

Hope to hear from yall soon!!! Have a great weekend!!! Smooches

This Friendship Should Be Laid To Rest

I saw this poem and it reminded me of alot of people who are having friend problems. I myself have noticed alot of fake people around my neck of the woods and its really funny honestly. But I always say " Out with the old, In with the new". And in 2009 there will be alot of old baggage thrown away, left behind, and forgotten!!! I only see stars in my future and they are as bright as can be........so who ever shinin wit me see ya at the top. Whoever trying to block my shine, must be left behind!!!!!! Sorry 4 ya!!!! hahah........NOT!!!!!!



What else could you do that would hurt me
How else could you cause me pain
How much longer will you go untrusting
And when will you leave me again
How many times will you tell me you love me
How often you'll say that you care
When again will you be unforgiving
When I reach for you no body be there
How many times will you tell me you're sorry
How often on me will you cry
And how I will always come running
For a while after Ill be left asking why
How many more tears can you take from me
How many more apologies can I make
Will there come a time for me
When I accept all was a mistake
How often will you come back to me
How many times will I fall
Before I admit how you're treating me
And for once over you stand tall
What else could you do to kick me down
How else could you make me sad
How much longer can you pretend
That this friendship hasn't gone bad
How many more times will you speak ill of me
Yet reach out for me when in pain
How much more can I take from you
And will you always be the same
When will you hear me calling you
When will you see all Ive done
When will you see how you troubled me
That this friendships had its run
When will you smile because I am smiling
Or are you saddened by my success
Maybe if these things are true my friend
This friendship should be laid to rest

What A Long Day!!!!!!!!

So the last few days have been sooooooo crazy!!! I had a pretty decent xmas even though it was the first one since my mom, grandfather, and uncle passed. It definitely wasn't the same without them around the dinner table, but we still made it happen and had a blessed holiday.

So I've been back to work and we have been sooo busy!!! Its to be expected because i do work in the medical field and tis the season to be sick with everything you can think of!!lol We are averaging about 70 to 120 patients per day!!!!(crazy right???) its cool though, because id rather be busy then to just be sitting there bored as all hell!!!( yea ya heard me right, i have to be doin something!!)

Work has been a little trying lately due to internal conflict among the employees, and today it just reached an all time high!! I always say never mix business with pleasure and always know when to talk about work matters at work and personal matter at home!!!

I know that every where you go there are cliques, that's a given. but my thing is when upper management try to be more of a friend then a manager. See when managers do this some don't know how to draw a fine line between the 2. I myself am a manager at my place of employment and can definitely separate the two!!! The other manager does not.

I love her to death but she can not ride that fine line. I don't think its fair to show favoritism, especially if its well known to the other employees, that's when the shit hits the fan!!!! I myself am cool with all my staff and doctors that i work with. Out of all 7 of our sites we run I have not a problem with anyone and if I did no one would ever know unless it needed to be known.

Everyone who knows me personally can honestly say that i have a huge heart and i am very kind and warm. I mean I can be an asshole when i need to be and fly off the handle, but it takes alot to get me there and when I do, ITS A FUCKIN RAP!!!!(excuse the lingo..lol) And at the same time i can be just as gentle and cry at the drop of the hat if you yell at me or hurt my feelings.

I love my staff very much and they are a great bunch to work with, but they need to know when to separate work from personal life. And the other managers need to know how to separate being just that a MANAGER and then being just a FRIEND. Sorry for he work rambles, but I just needed to vent some more after venting to my best friend (thanks bighead...i 'appreciate it!!).

I also had this post in regards to every day life and friends that you may or may not work with. Alot of times we take people for granted. No matter if we mean to or not, and Ive been seeing that alot lately. Hell, I may even been a victim myself? I'm not perfect and I know no one else is, but when you have a good person in your life that you know would do anything in the world for you times 10!?!?!? You need to really cherish, honor, and acknowledge that because people like that are hard as hell to find these days!!

This last year has taught me alot about people around me and that are a part of my inner circle. Some people truly don't realize what they have until its gone.(I've definitely experienced that this year). So to all those who I may have taken advantage of or neglected our friendship/relationship, from the bottom of my heart and soul....I truly do apologize and I pray every night that you forgive me and that i don't make the same mistake again with you or anyone else. And to all those who have or will do it to me...I have forgave you and will forgive you because I refuse to enter 2009 and live through 2009 with stress and troubles.

To all those out there who have great people in your lives that are down for you no matter if its work, school, relationship, money, health, business, moving, or what ever else, hold on to them and give the same in return. This is a very hard, cruel, 2 faced world and you need at least one person who will always be there!!! If you have more than one person then you are def blessed!!!!

Have a great night all!!!! Smooches!!!

Start A Journal

Saying your intentions out loud an writing them down on paper confirms things and makes them happen.

It's a way of stating your intention to the universe. Keeping a journal that only you have access to is a very healthy way of downloading your hopes, dreams, and wishes and giving them concrete form.

I am very big about writing things down and keeping lists and planners too!! I have always felt that its a way to keep things in order and to also check of goals, aspirations, plans, etc as I complete them.

Call me anal or a woman with a slight case of ocd, but I do not care cuz it does work!!!lol I actually came by a list I had from the 4th grade!!lol I had 10 goals I wanted to accomplish in life and so far I have about.....oh 5 or 6 left. I'm still young, no kids, no husband, nothing to tie me down so I better get working!!!;o)

Revelation

Its not a weakness if you don't know what to do with your life. That's the state most of us are in most of the time.

The weakness is if you don't want anything at all and settle for just the minimum of what you can get.

Always aspire for the things you want in life and figure out the best and most efficient way for you to attain those aspirations. Remember the sky is the limit, so always shoot for the stars!!!


Aspire: To see to attain a particular goal; to soar to a great height.