My Ride or Die.....My Sister....My Heart

I've been gone for a minute, but I'm back with the jump off!!!lol Just kidding, I was getting my Lil Kim on for a minute there..lol I just want to give my blogger fam a better feeling for who I am and what I stand for in case you don't know or don't have a clue already.

This post is actually a tribute to my best female friend in the whole entire nation!!We go back since high school and we've been girls every since. Her family is my family and vice versa. There has never been a time where we haven't been there for each other. Even when she moved to Fl we were still tight as ever.

I must admit I don't really have too many female friends, because let's be honest, girls can be very catty and just too much!! Most of the females I do hang around are family or dag on near close to it. Now don't get me wrong I have found some true blue females out there, but Leslie, she's not only my best friend, she's my ace, my dog, my confidant, my ride or die, my sister!!! So with that being said here's a poem I found so fitting:

What Is A Friend

Some people say friend's are great, some say they are good to have around.
Some say that a friend is a treasure and that they are hard to be found.
Some people say that a friend is someone that is honest and true.
But when somebody asks me what a friend is, I simply point to you.




Side Bar: The 1st picture of us was the day after high school graduation!! We dipped off to NYC, New Jersey, and Philly for a week!! Wow....So much fun! Notice how tiny we were!!lol That came from all those years of cheer leading!!lol The rest of the pics was from my first time visiting her in Orlando when she was like 8 mths preggers with my nephew!! How fly did she still look???

Strength

Strength is what you have that's stronger than ever
Strength is the only power that is stronger than any power of mankind
Strength is something that gives you the power to carry on
Strength gives you the the power to help someone you love
Strength is a power that you have within yourself



This is something that I truly believe in and I have been trying to live by since Jan 1st 2009. I will admit it has definitely been trying to do so because there is so much negativity around. It's like I'm trying to be a ray of sunlight and people want to keep bringing in the dark clouds around me?? How whack is that??? I've had a long talk with my dad and a long talk with the man above to come to an understanding as to why must all the drama and bad things keep surrounding me? Am I being punished? Is it the company I keep? Is it because I don't take sides and I'm a neutral party? Is it because I'm being tested for something greater?

I have all these thoughts running through my head and I cant come up with a logical explanation? I'm a very good person, I work hard, I'm respectable, dependable, compassionate, funny, adventurous, trustworthy, honest, and fair. But I still feel like I get the short end of the stick. Ive been through alot!! More than what everyone would not even believe I went through if I told them. And I'm still here and I'm still standing, but I feel like there has been this fuse burning and burning and its about to burn out!! That's exactly how my mind body and soul feels. JUST COMPLETELY BURNED OUT I'm not saying im the only one who goes through this either. Im sure many and plenty of people have, are, or will be going through this. Im just wondering, when will it end??

My god mom always tells me, " Ran, you have to stop doing and worrying about others and worry and do for yourself! Stop putting yourself last. Stop worrying about you not being there for your family, friends, co-workers, etc. So what if they get mad, where are they at when you need them? Are they at your beck and call? Are they worried about your health, your mind, trouble at work,your grieving process??" When she said that to me it really hit home and made me think about all of that??? And she had a good valid point, No matter if it was harsh or not. She had a great point..........To be continued.....????